The Beach Boys - God Only Knows

I've been thinking a lot these past few days, hence my lack of posting. Having rid myself of all social media, and having finally vented some of my most private thoughts about the state of the world we live in, I wondered whether or not to keep the blog. It wouldn't be the first time - I do have a long list of abandoned blogs out there.
I know I can't change the world. I know that it's not something that can be changed on an individual level. But I think maybe I can help bring something good to the world of those around me. It's true - there's far too much evil in the world. How can I fight this? How can I counter this? Ultimately, it may be only through song, story, recollection and light that I may do this. So if writing here somehow brings some form of solace to any living soul, then I'll be happy for that.

So the gist of this post is something that's been in my mind for many months now, but for some reason I kept on delaying actually writing it. Well, not just for any reason. A few months back I woke up and I was feeling uncharacteristically chipper, and I wanted to spin 'Pet Sounds' before I left for work. I've always enjoyed the Beach Boys - well, at least since 'Cocktail', anyways - and listening to songs like 'Sloop John B' always leaves me happy. Plus, it's got one of my all-time favourite songs there, but I'll write about it further ahead. So I go to my record shelf, start browing it, and to my surprise... no 'Pet Sounds'. It got me thinking that I probably had it in a previous collection and had not yet bought it again. I eventually did get it, but not until a few weeks back, maybe a month or so ago.
In this here record there's something that can hardly be properly explained - a tiny whisper of a song, but enormous in its span, magical in its construction, a work of art among works of art. That song is called 'God Only Knows', a few seconds short of three minutes long, but an absolute monument to perfection. It's one of the few songs that not only always reduces me to tears, but that I can genuinely listen to it for hours on end. And I have two very strong memories regarding this song.
One of them is because it's part of one of my movie guilty pleasures, and I unashamedly and proudly own up to it, that movie being 'Love Actually'. I can't even begin to imagine to how many times I've watched it. It's just one of those movies that I'll always love watching, and whenever it's playing on TV, I am there. And one of the many reasons why I love this movie is because just at the ending, at its perfect ending, this song is played over the final scene. God damn it. I'm not crying, you're crying.
The second memory is rather more heartbreaking - for me at least. I want to say this was in christmas 2007, but it may have been a bit after that, in early 2008. Back then, I posted the video to this song on my facebook page, and my girlfriend at the time - arguably the love of my life - asked me if that post was meant to be for her. And the truth is, it wasn't - I had posted it with my son in mind. And I realized far too late that it could very well be about her as well. I don't think... at the time, I don't think I had it in me to recognize it and to be able to express myself that way. But I could've said yes. I should've said yes.
It was the only answer I should've given. I should have told her so. Who knows how things would have turned out if I had?
God only knows.