Day Fifty-five - Suedehead

Lucia, now she was really putting the moves on me. That never having happened before - with 'Mary Moon' it just kind of happened - I just sort of naturally followed her lead. She took me away from the others, and we sat down just talking for a bit, but before I knew it  she had me wrapped around her arms, and we spent quite a bit of that gig making out, though at least when the bands I really wanted to see started palying, I convinced her to move to the arena proper so at least I could listen to some of the music, and maybe a catch a glimpse of the gig as well amidst all the smooching.

Now, let's make this very, very clear : I am, always was, and always will be, a quite naive person. If someone tells me something, I usually take it at face value. If someone shows an interest in me, it's always because in my mind there is no vested interest behind it. This, of course, has led to nothing but disappointment my whole life, but alas - such is my nature. I can't change it, not fully, but as years wore on and wore me down I had to become much more protective of myself. But I am still very naive...

So, with that said, a very big part of me truly believed that Lucia was somehow interested in me, though I always thought a girl like her was so far out of my reach. But this was during my military training, and I was in great shape, and I myself am not entirely unattractive - even if I do say so myself. And that would prove to be the only time we were actually together, though I got her phone number and maybe her address so I could maybe write to her - I can't recall now that I ever did, but I might've. It never really struck that she was just using me to get back at JC, perhaps there was still some unresolved shit between them, and maybe she also saw him at the gig flanked by those two other girls, and in me she just saw an useful idiot, just there for the taking. To add to this, sometime after the gig, I was talking to Valter on the payphone we had where I was doing my training, and he alluded to the fact that there was someone missing me... so I believed, truly. How very naive I was...

Oh, in that gig there was some other girl there - Dora. Though she really didn't register in my mind all that much, I'd soon get to know her better, because apparently as Lucia was to me in that gig, so was she also to Valter. Though I knew nothing of it then, it would still take a few more weeks until she told me that. And just like me, Valter also thought that she was interested in him. Apparently, I wasn't the only one who was naive.