Day Fifty-six - 12:51

I can't remember now how many times I saw Dora before we became an item. It wouldn't have been many, maybe just a handful. Out of the top of my head I recall five, maybe six such instances. In one of them, which might actually be two of the same instances combined, who knows, I remember being alone with her near Valter's house for some reason. I have no idea why, but there we were, just the two of us talking about whatever. And maybe I let show just how infatuated I was with Lucia, even though she cared little for me, and at that she asked me if I really liked her that much. It was more of a remark than a question, really, and she sounded a bit sad as she asked it. I guess I told her I did, thpugh I knew nothing would come out of it, and no more was said. Some time later, maybe weeks apart from this moment, but not maybe just a couple of weeks really, me, Valter and the girls went out for drinks and, you know, after a while and after a few drinks me and her found ourselves alone again. This time we went outside the bar, and soon found ourselves sitting down on a patch of grass in front of the bar. It was maybe early June, and the nights were already hot. The sky was clear that night, and we just lay on our backs looking at the stars. I'm not sure if we talked much at all, but we probably did. All I know is that soon we had turned to face each other there in that patch of grass, still lying down, oh so close to one another... and nothing happened. I suppose we both wanted to, probably her more than me, but out of respect for Valter and our friendship, I decided to quit while I was ahead. 

We both returned to the bar - we might've been absent for quite a while - and when Valter got the opportunity, he flat out asked me I'd kissed her. I told him no, no I didn't. Well, at least not then, but I soon would. And soon, I'd lose that friendship with Valter, something that still pains me to this day. I've always said that had our roles been reversed, I'd have not given up on our friendship. Yes, I know these things hurt, and I know these things that a lot of a lot of different things to properly heal - but I've also learned that friendships, and good ones at that, come fewer and far between than girlfriends. But maybe, just maybe it was a just punishment.

It might've been on this night that I told Dora that I was planning to ask to be assigned to somewhere very far, and this said, wwe exchanged addresses and phone numbers. She asked me to write her whenever I got to to where I was supposed to go, and I promised her I would. As soon as the time came for me to choose where I wanted to be allocated, I chose to stay quite near home.  And first chance I got, I called Dora. I asked her if she knew where I was calling from, and she guessed wrong. Soon we would be meeting alone for the first time, and we started dating that very day.