Shout Out Louds - Impossible

There was a version of this post that I composed in my head around 3 or 4 a.m. today, a time where I was desperately trying - and failing - to fall asleep, and in the meantime I rehearsed in my mind one of the most difficult talks I ever had to have with a living soul - and yeah, it wasn't the conversation as it did happen, but the conversation as it should've happened, where I should have been completely honest both with myself and the other party. But screw it, I'm not going to wallow in more self-pity. At least not right now.
And then there's the original version of this post - I was going to wax lyrical about my summer of 2011, when for some odd reason I was feeling invincible, and so much seemed to be going my way. That was the summer of Filipa and of long, drunken nights, nights of music, and sex, and dancing, and yes - plenty of alcohol. But that story actually lends itself to another future post, about a month from now.
There was a somewhat golden age for telco ads here, around maybe 2003-05, where mainly Vodafone and Optimus could do no wrong in both their visual presentation and choice for music. I fondly recall the Vodafone ad that was set to Bloc Party's 'Banquet' as well as Optimus's own ads set to The Veils's 'The Leaver's Dance' as well as Shout Out Louds 'Tonight I have to leave it'. Good stuff, back then.
I'll leave this here, time to take a shower and then try to get some rest. It just feels like it's impossible.