Day Ninety-seven - Rhiannon

Now for a story that precious few people have ever been told or know about. To be honest, I myself don't know the precise number of people I told this story - no more than a few, certainly less than a handful. Probably really only a couple of people, other than the other people who were involved in the story - the instigator and my 'partner in crime', so to speak. This sad story pertains to the one and only time I was unfaithful to Dora. And I tell it now, because I want no more secrets. Let the worst of me - at least so far - stand revealed. 

So, by then, regular sex between me and Dora had been off the table for a number of years. We'd do it maybe once a year, if I got lucky. And if for a great while this actively bothered me and messed me up inside, then from a certain point on I stopped caring, really. I stopped thinking about sex. Sex, to me, was something that happened to other people -  and that was ok. So, withing Hugo's circle of friends, people who he'd worked with or went to uni with, there was a somewhat strange girl that was always very nice to me. And one day Hugo texts me and says that she... huh... she wanted to jump my bones. And I couldn't understand why - at the time I was at one of my lowest points both mentallly and physically, so I couldn't quite grasp why she'd want anything with me, least fo all sex. And then Hugo explained - the girl - and she was our age - had never had sex before, and really wanted to do it with this guy she was in love with, but really didn't notice her. So she wanted to get some... experience. And, ok, but why? Why me? Why have your first time be with me, of all people? Well, because I was the designated dumbass. I agreed to talk to her about it, and we eventually set a date for the thing. It was all terribly official, with a date, time and place set by her. But I must say that I struggled with this decision. It was a line I had never wanted to cross. So, it wasn't neither an easy nor immediate 'yes' from me. What drove me to finally acquiescing was Dora not being amenable to my advances once more, and as I knew that we were living on borrowed time anyway, I went ahead with it. 

So on the day that had been agreed upon, we  met up - she was very nervous, and had to have a drink before - and when we got to our room we started... trying. And it didn't go well. Well, it didn't go... in. It would't go in. It was like she had a vagina Gandalf telling my penis Balrog : 'You shall not pass!'

And after a couple of hours of trying and failing to have sex, we gave up on it, and went our separate ways. Moral of the story : she ended up having sex for the first time with the guy she had always intended to.