Day six - Discipline

So, coming into this new year, I made just the one resolution : no resolutions. They never worked for me in the past, so I eventually stopped doing that altogether. But... I did decide on a few things. 

There was a part of me that really believed that I would not have been able to survive last year, what with all the idiocy I put myself through. And it's not like I didn't have enough warning, for the past few years every time I went to work related doctor's appointments, they'd telll of my high blood pressure, of my need to correct my eating habits, to exercise again. As well, my body was letting know that things were not alright with me; it wasn't just the feeling exhausted all the time because my sleep is all shot, it wasn't just the fact that after taking two steps I was already huffing and puffing. My feet and my legs have become swollen, and if I wear something that's even somewhat tight, I can feel it - literally feel it - in my skin. And because I'm me, because I'm too proud to listen to advice, even when it's good one, I lust let things slide. 

But maybe I want things to be different now. And maybe I can't change everything. But it is my hope that I can change some things. So that meant identifying the areas where I need improving, and where I knew that I could immediately effect some sort of change.

There are three key things I felt I needed to begin doing : two would impact the body directly, and the other would impact the mind. As of now, and because it is far too early for me to start tooting my own horn, I'd rather keep to myself what those things are, but let me say that out of these three, two I've managed to do on a consistent, daily basis. The third part of the equation... well, that's still up for grabs. I still need to figure out what I want to do, how I want to do it, and I have to see if it's just a question of timing. I'll probably know in a few weeks.

There's a fourth thing I plan on introducing, which though it's not something that I need to do on a daily basis, it's something that I really want to do and get used to do it very often - possibly once a week or more - which is keep my goddman room clean. What with my cats and eating at the desk while I work or do other stuff, it's really easy for things to get out of hand quite quickly. It may seem like a small thing, but if it's something that I can do, then I know that that will help my mental health.

I think by now I've painted a clear picture of how I got to where I am. From tomorrow what I'll do is start to see how far back I can remember things.