The Lady Voldemort drama now finally and completely dealt with, I found it was time for me to live again, unfettered by all that had happened. Summer 2015 I was getting quite active on my social media, and it wasn't like I was really looking for something or someone, but I ended up crossing paths with a girl called Lia. We never were in a relationship, far from it - we had an understanding that whatever it was we had going on was purely sexual, and for a while we became these occasional fuck buddies.
The problem with these situations is that no matter how much you think that there won't be any feelings involved, somewhere down the line they'll start popping up. And they did, though not on my part. She was decidedly invested in trying to snatch me, but I always knew I'd never feel anything for her - at least not in the same way. I mean, she was nice and kind, and the sex was great, but even that became a bore. Worst of all, sometimes she'd ask to sleep over at her place, and she acted like we were a real couple. I allowed this façade to continue well past fall and into early winter, but by then I was getting to know someone else - Sonia.
Sonia will be featured in depth in the next few posts, there'll be plenty of stories to be written. I can safely say that it turned out to be one of the least gratifying relationships I've ever been in. I met her online as well - I knew she was friends with a group of people I knew because of a mutual friend, and we eventually became friends as well on facebook. There was never much banter between us, but I admired her from a distance. She intrigued me, so much so that I eventually started talking to her, though I did it out of concern. Now, bear in mind that I neither knew her personally nor knew aught of her private life, but she was always one to post pictures of herself on the regular. But she started to have a look in her eyes - so it seemed to me, at least - that looked like she wasn't doing that well. I reached out to her, and told her just that. I told her I'd been sensing an aura of sadness about her. And the way she responded to that blew my mind.
So Sonia tells me that she'd been eagerly expecting a message from me - she'd had her eye on me, and she was hoping I'd make the first move. But I had never even considered that to be an option, I knew she had a boyfriend. Well... not anymore, she didn't. And that first approach led us to keep on talking on a daily basis, so eventually we decided that it was tine for us to meet in person.
We had such a lovely night together, we had Indian for dinner, and then ended up in her place. Things were looking very promising indeed.
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