Day One hundred and ninety three - The new

As I go about writing these stories, my goal is to provide the key moments of my timeline. That means that I usually stay out of boring job stuff and that I sometimes have to contend with what content goes into these posts. Some things, and indeed, some people, were just too fleeting in my life for them to have had any real impact. One great example of that came right after Sonia, where I briefly dated another girl called Sonia. Now, this Sonia was a longtime facebook friend of mine, and we'd always got on really well. We had never met in person prior, and it just so happened that after the Sonia debacle, here I found myself meeting - and briefly dating - a different Sonia. But that story was so brief that it's not relevant in the slightest to how my life panned out. It didn't really work out because it was too soon after Sonia, I was still too raw... it just wasn't meant to be. 

But not long after that I'd get into a relationship of sorts with a girl called Isabel.  And Isabelwill always be one of the greatest 'what if' moments in my life. Again, we were facebook friends first. One day, we were talking about music, and she told me that on one the clubs I sometimes wentto, they'd having a special Arcade Fire night. She asked me if I wanted to take her there. We agreed on meeting close to where I lived - she would pick me up in her car - and maybe a couple of minutes aftre being with her she asked me if I was open to a change of plans. She asked me if I was game about instead going to the off-licence, get a couple of bottles of wine, and go to her place. I bit, and that's what ended up happening - us going to her place, dinking some wine, and then having sex. Which, to be fair, was my first time after Sonia, and I didn't think it went that well. I had hoped I'd get another chance to show my qualities.

And I did, may times over. We'd be together every other weekend or so, we'd either go out for a meal before or eat something at her place, and then sex. And by God, it was really, really great sex. I don't know whether or not it was the best sex I ever had, but it's high up there. We agreed that what we had would be sex-based only, I didn't want to have a 'real' relationship and neither did she. We were good that way. In a sense, we were happy that way. But somewhere along the line I started to realize that there were feelings involved. Initially on her side, and then later on, on mine. It had stopped being just about sex. We genuinely enjoyed each other's company, and I loved sleeping next to her. We fit together. But, as always, I waited far too long to act upon things.